Thursday, December 14, 2006
My Two New Addictions
So since I've moved to China things have never been better... I think. I also think it's hard to judge such things. Now that I'm nearing the halfway point I think it's time to do a little self-assement.
Things I've Learned so Far:
Enough of the Chinese language to get myself IN trouble, not necessarriliy out of it.
That time doesn't ever stand still and seems to change paces depending on what I'm doing.
That most friends are superficial, but good ones aren't as hard to find as it seems.
People every where are basically the same.
I have two new addictions that I'm not sure I'll ever be able to shake.
Oranges and Being Popular.
Never particulary cared for oranges before... but here, so cheap, convient, easy, fresh, mmmmmm. I must eat at least 30/week. If I'm at home I can just sit and peel and watch movies for hours. mmmmm.
And the popular thing... well, I'm not sure exactly how to deal with it. I guess people liked me plenty enough back home, but I never really noticed. But here, it's astounding.. I'm like a rockstar. So I guess if I ever become a star I'll already know what it feels like.
But in other news I'm starting to feel the rift in myself again. The one that knows I should be more mature and more responsible and the one that says, but brandy you're only 23 there's plenty of time and you've always been so good. I'm pretty sure the only thing I've ever really been so good at, is just being lazy. I mean if I could just pin-point something, get excited or motivated, I KNOW i would be awesome. But I just can't. I don't know why. Fear of failure, perhaps? I don't think so. Because I know how to learn from my mistakes. I just recently rediscovered my inability to make important decisions. It's frustrating.
Also, not eating lunch is frustrating. So I'm going to go do that.
I'll leave you with promises of a new photo album from the new branch school that opened and some other random photos from a BBQ the teachers had.
Videos to come soon!
Love you and miss you all.